Tuesday, May 2, 2023

Do You Mindfulness? by Nomar Knight

 



Do You Mindfulness? 

By Nomar Knight


     When I was a kid, I was often told to mind my own business. Now, as an adult, I find myself learning about a life-changing tool called mindfulness. Essentially, mindfulness involves focusing on the present moment. Given that I grew up in bustling New York City, this task presents a unique challenge for me. However, I believe that practicing mindfulness can transform me into a more relaxed and productive version of myself.

    As someone who struggles with anxiety, I prefer to avoid complicated techniques. That's why I appreciate that mindfulness encompasses a variety of practices, including meditation, yoga, and simply paying attention to my breathing and body sensations. Taking moments to slow down and shut out the distractions of the outside world is crucial for my well-being.

    Over the years, I've noticed a pattern of negative thoughts that only exacerbate my anxiety. Focusing on any one thing for an extended period of time is a rare feat for me. With mindfulness, I hope to improve my ability to concentrate on tasks over time. Being self-aware of my reactions and behaviors will also be crucial in managing my emotions. Mindfulness promises to increase emotional regulation, which would benefit me greatly as a junior high school teacher. Though I typically maintain a cool demeanor, there are moments when my inner suspense writer wants to take over and handle situations in an action movie kind of way. Luckily, I've learned to leave those impulses to my fictional writing and rely on my charming personality in real life.



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Monday, May 1, 2023

Strange Behavior by Nomar Knight

 


Strange Behavior

by Nomar Knight



Anxiety and depression have made me feel like a stranger in my own skin. My short-term memory isn't as sharp as it used to be, and I'm not sure if it's due to stress or the side effects of the Covid vaccine. I've noticed changes in my thought process and behavior, and it's becoming increasingly difficult to function.

Lately, I've been experiencing repetitive brain fog. I'll put items in the back of my car, only to stop on the side of the road to check if they're still there. What used to be a simple recall of memory now feels like a lit candle losing oxygen, struggling to stay alight. My mind feels clouded, and it's affecting my daily life.

Despite my passion for writing, my condition often leaves me feeling uninspired and unmotivated. It's as if my creativity is trapped at the bottom of a well, and I can't seem to access it. I long to craft interesting characters and embark on wondrous journeys, but my anxiety holds me back.

Procrastination is a constant battle for me, and my anxiety only exacerbates the issue. I know that I need to stick to a routine of writing, planning, and scheming, but it's easier said than done. I'll try to start fresh tomorrow, and hopefully, I can finally claim a victory over my procrastination.





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Tuesday, April 11, 2023

Thoughts of a Crying Soul by Nomar Knight

Thoughts of a Crying Soul

By Nomar Knight




I feel lost in life and everything seems difficult, like crawling on glass. My pain leaves a trail of broken hearts, and I'm overwhelmed by the constant loneliness. Numbness spreads through my body, and I dread the thought of facing another day of torture.

I've become a creature of habit, afraid to leave the safety of my routine. I keep myself busy with mundane tasks and avoid anything that might awaken the beast within me.

During the day, I try to stay focused and avoid anything that might trigger memories of happier times. But at night, the past creeps in, and I'm haunted by thoughts of love and the life I could never have. I long for the touch of a loved one, but it only leads to more pain and misery.




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